Wednesday, February 29, 2012

In need of a break

So my mom was here two weekends ago for a couple days. The following weekend, Justin's parents were here and stayed with us. And then Justin came down with a nasty sickness and has been home from work for three days. Gah! I need some space. Some quite. Some me time. That is why right now I am on the computer and Justin is in bed. Ahhhh quite.

Moving Forward

So I had my annual exam last week with a new primary care doctor. She is part of the same practice. I saw her when I thought I might me developing mastitis and really liked her so I switched doctors. Anyway, as great as a pap smear can be, it was a great visit. She sent me home with a prescription for metformin and for clomid(4 months worth). And she was the one to suggest it. I am so glad I do not have to go to Dr. Gelety. Not that I don't love him. It's just that going to him requires a ton for monitoring and with a toddler, I just don't have the time. If clomid for 4months does not work, then I will see him. For now I am happy with this.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Nothing New

Just cleared my fertile period for this month. Finger crossed that sperm met egg and may be settling in. Having my yearly exam this evening. I'll ask for clomid. If my PCP cannot provide it, I'll be giving Dr. Gelety a call in the morning.

The former Journey

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Monday, February 6, 2012

Those same old feelings . . .

Feelings of
sadness every time my period starts.
jealousy every time a friend tells me she's pregnant.
inadequacy and frustration over how my female systems work, or don't work.
longing to hold my own little baby.
urgency because I am not getting any younger and I have an age cut off in my mind.

and more that I cannot think of at the moment.

Also trying to remember all the tips and tricks that I used to use/try
Geritol complete
Pre seed
baby aspirin
evening primrose oil
low/slow carb diet
what else?
exercise--I really need to figure this one out.

Make a wish

I wish for another baby. I want a brother or sister for Daphne, another grand baby for my mom, another chance to give birth, another chance to hold a precious bundle in my arms, another chance to breastfeed. I want all of that.

We have been sort of trying for the last 7 months or so, just tracking my cycles. They have become very regular so that is good news. But I only have one fallopian tube, plus PCOS and endometriosis. So there is the challenge and shy I want to take clomid. I need both ovaries firing every month to increase my chances. But clomid is all I want to do. No more IUI's or IVF. I don't need it and we cannot afford it!

So I am seeing my GP in a couple weeks for my annual exam. If she won't prescribe it, I will head back to Dr. Gelety and get it from him.